Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Growning Pains

At the ripe old age of 3, I was asked...
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
Simple answers like, a fireman or an astronaut are the things my friends answered, but what did I say? I told my mom I wanted to be a Star. I told her to enroll me in "How To Be A Star" lessons. I'm not sure how she held back the laughs but now as I reflect back on the 19 yrs of life I can see the many "Star" lessons i've learned....

Growing up is hard and I often find that I'm constantly faced with decisions. Its no wonder they call this the decade of decisions...So much pressure rides on all of my choices and the simpliest one can alter the rest of my life. Most of the time, I'm making a choice between two good things. But which one is the best? I still want to be that girl who does it all, achieves everything she wanted but never at the cost of my happiness. I'm can now see that these things are possible if I really make the decision to chase them and never look back. Im ready to run full force and with no regrets but at what point do i sacrifice the beautiful life I have here? It's a risk taking that step, but I can't let these moments and experiences pass me by because of fear.

Dreams have changed and goals have been reached but that tiny desire in me to be a Star still remains. No longer do I dream to be famous, or a star on broadway (which requires being able to hold a note, and we all know how good I am at that) but I still have big dreams that I get nervous I'll never see fulfilled. What is to hold me back? My own fear? Will I ever see that dream of being a Star come true? Only time will tell but I do know im going to do everything within my power to fight for what I want, and hold to what I Love!

~Jessie Ann

3 comments:

  1. beautiful Jess..you are a star girl! I love you!

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  2. Jessie,
    I love it and I have to say, to me you are already a star! I love the way you put yourself out there, stretch, try, and do it again, expressing who you are and letting others enjoy your incredible talent and skill. You are amazing!

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  3. You're the definition of Star-dom Jessie! I've always admired you!

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